I’m one of those girls who is never invited to hang out„ to go to parties„ to go shopping withh. Instead, I’m one of those girls who spends her weekends at home thinking about how alone she is„ crying„ wishing she could die instead of having to endure going to school. I’m one of those girls who is always nice to everyone„ never starts rumors„ doesnt create problems. But yet, im one of those girls that people have to pick on, start rumors, talk shit about.. I do nothing but try my best to be nice to everone.. But im that girl who goes through school, haveing to ignore the shit„ put on that mask and tell everyone that im fine;; and when i go home„ i have to keep that mask on till i can be alone in my room and cry my eyes out every night„ wishing I could just end it all.. To everyone i know, im that fun girl that gets good grades.. I get good grades because I have nothing better to do on my weekends than to study, because no one wants to hang out with me.. I ask people almost every weekend if they want to go to the mall, chill.. but every weekend the answer is the samee.. I’ve never had any guy tell they love me, never had that first kiss.. I’ve had too much rejection to last a life timee.. Im a loner, a loser, a reject.. Im that girl that thinks about suicide almost everydayy.. I have no friends, no one I can tell everything to„ no one to trust.. I’m that girl that is ugly, fat, and considers herself as a worthless peice of shitt.. I’m that girll that is never going to be good enough.. never going to be chosen first… But there is something that I will always be„ alone„ because no one bothers to choose me… No one bothers to give me a second thought..

I dont want anyone to give me a pity look, or a pity smile.. But I want someone to hug me and tell me that it will be okay„ that I AM worth it and actually mean it.. I just want someone to make me smile instead of cry.. is that so hard to ask for?

(Source: nvrgonnabenough)

(Source: howdoesitfuckingfeel, via shedreamed0f-paradise)